I enjoyed reading the above myself 😊 My “training” over a lifetime really. So what have I done since then…. Well I am sitting here, in my hut one the beach in Goa writing this for a start. What a journey life is. My dear friend Seda Shambavi said yesterday as we caught up after 2 years of not seeing each other: “only a really strong spirit would have designed such a karma that you have seen over the last 2 years”, I smiled at her wisdom. Yes higher-self gave me the people and experiences I needed. I called it training earlier, I meant it, so many of us think of training as the certificates we may or may not frame and display on the walls of our therapy rooms but it is sooo much more. Like the walk I had yesterday with “Swami I Am” the nanoo second of being suspended in space that was extended into no time as I asked myself: “what is happening”, then the shock of finding myself on the floor with a bleeding leg followed shortly with the ego’s offence at men trying to manhandle me to my feet and who on earth could have been stupid enough to leave the stand for an umbrella right next to a guests chair in a dimly lit restraint. Another wake-up call. Like the young man I sat with over drinks the other night said: India will give you what you need. Remember that when you get Delhi belly 😊
So what since then, here goes:
The decision to keep my marriage house after my husband’s departure meant having a hard look at income. Luckily, I met a clever young man called Billy from Glasgow, he looked more of a thug than an entrepreneur, but I liked him. On his advice I applied the 80-20 rule and the winner was hypnosis and a website was the way to go. It worked, very well and within three months my clients had tripled. Hypnotherapy was the way to go and I went big style. I upped my psychotherapy training, went all the way to trainer with NLP and taught hypnotherapy for several years. Sadly, it meant other things had to diminish, Sekhem had petered out since Helen brought in copyright and changed the name and for me the clients slowly dwindled, the ones that sought me out I gave what they asked but I didn’t pursue it any longer and in 2010 the revolution put paid to spiritual tours to Egypt. I was saddened but my life was running apace.
In 2012 I started spending holidays in Turkey where I met Seda, an Aruvedic consultant and yoga teacher and we created a couple of retreats there, but bombings ended that story prematurely and although I made a couple of retreats to Cyprus – like the Turkish ones, based on my now published book: “The Me I Want To Be” my heart wasn’t in it. I felt a missing ingredient in my work. This grew in 2016 and actually just before I published I fell into deep self-doubt.
Since 2010 I had trained in Hatha Yoga with Zen Master Daizan Skinner, then in Yoga Nidra with Swami Nirmal farmer and them with Daizan again the teachers training for Zen Meditation and Mindfulness. My personal practice was spiritual but my professional practice remained firmly as a psychotherapist and hypnotherapist. Then in 2015 I went to India, I was encouraged by both Seda and the thought of doing the childhood deconditioning course, Primal, at the Osho Ashram in Pune. The whole trip was amazing, and I came back feeling I had recaptured the spiritual essence of my true self – just as I had in 2004 before, well I don’t even know how to explain exactly what happened then but anyway I felt back to “myself” after India. Then, the biggest karmic truck hit me full on and lasted a whole 2 years and some, so here I am having come full circle and now sitting on my porch in Goa…
So my personal development deepened in many ways, a consciousness driven peeling of layers. I followed the Primal course with the tantra course and become sanyasin and facilitator for Osho… I went to a workshop In Romania called “Conscious Medicine” it was based on something called New German medicine and much of it was well, just too medical for me – BUT – the gold I got was a deeper understand, in fact a whole new level of “knowing” why the mnemodynamic psychotherapy I have been practicing for years worked so beautifully in sometimes miracle like ways and also why it would never work on those clients that just didn’t go “in”. This encouraged me even more towards the Osho meditation therapies and I could see so clearly how the man was light years ahead of his time.
The next eye opener was after a run in with a narcissist. He was my dark angel and broke me open enough to not only force my healing to a deeper level but to force my pen onto paper and start my auto biography. The healing method I used was Mel Quantum – it worked, beautifully and to me (the therapist me) it was mnemodynamics and sekhem rolled into one. I was getting excited. All the things I had leared over a lifetime were coming into a beautiful play with each other.